Tuesday, May 09, 2006
I just really needed to post this morning. I was feeling sorry for myself on the way to work today...because I had to go to work, because my pants are too tight, because I want more children, because my job is depressing... But when I walked in to work, I saw a familiar face that surprised me. A friend of mine was at my workplace for a class on parenting through divorce...she is getting a divorce, and my heart just aches for her. She and her husband have been through so much, but are not going to stay married. Kris and I have been through a lot, and we have come close to calling it quits, but we haven't and our marriage is now better than it has ever been. I have no doubt that we will be together forever. I am so blessed to have him, to have our marriage, to have our amazing daughter. I said a little prayer to ask God for forgiveness for being so selfish and demanding...I think he has already forgiven me. I am still not sure about my job. I think since going through the loss of a baby through miscarriage, and going through a disruption of a possible adoptive placement, I am much more sensitive to the things that children and families are going through now. It's been very difficult to go to my job every day. Well...I think that is all I need to say right now, but I wanted to make sure I recorded this little moment...of thankfulness.