I think my children must arise and call me cranky most days...ha! Is that the joyous life God has planned for me? Probably not. I have been reading through Proverbs 31, just over and over, to try and become the mom and wife I am supposed to be. Today I was reading in the footnotes of my study Bible, and read this definition for blessed: One who enjoys happy circumstances and from whom joy radiates to others. Sometimes I feel guilty for being happy, almost as if someone who would rather I be miserable is in the room with me, someone who secretly wishes for failure, drama and chaos. I know who that person is...the enemy of my soul. I need to realize that the lover of my soul, God, wants me to be blessed, to enjoy happy circumstances, to enjoy the blessings that HE has given me! And probably just as much as he wants me to enjoy it, he wants me to share that joy with others, to let others see his light, his hope, his peace, and JOY that he brings!
Lord, will you please help me with this today? I beg you to just fill up my heart for these children and this husband! I beg you to give me energy, enthusiasm, and most of all a love and joy that spills out to my family and friends. Please Lord, I trust you with this today. Amen.