Dear Jesus, Thank you so much for all of the amazing blessings in my life, I know that every good gift comes you, my children, my husband, my family and friendships...you are the giver of these...thank you so much. Lord, I need you. It's so simple, I just need you in my heart, in my life...not just as a part, but as a whole...take all of me, Lord, please. I don't want to keep treading water to stay alive, I want to be alive in you, Lord...please...please just fill me with you, Lord. I am begging for your presence. Please just help me through this life, be with me every step. Lord, I invite you, I give you permission to just have my life. I want a closer walk with you, Lord...so close that I can feel you holding on to me. Please Lord, please. In your precious name I pray, Amen.
Monday, June 25, 2012
Just a closer walk with thee...
Walking...I've been doing a lot of that...sometimes 4 miles a day...and I can feel the effects of it. I feel so much better, physically and mentally. Even though my walks are benefitting me, they are not the "walks" that I am really needing to take. The walks that I crave this morning, the ones I am desperate for are ones with my heavenly father. I have to admit that I've been really distant with him lately...just kind of coasting along...praying sometimes...sometimes not. Praising sometimes...sometimes not. Giving/Loving sometimes...sometimes not. I don't like it. I just want Jesus. There is nothing in this world that can satisfy my soul except him. No amount of exercise, weight loss, compliments, financial security---nothing can fill this hole in me like he can. His presence, his peace, his certainty can fill this need in me, if only I will let him in. So...right here in this post...I want to ask him, to invite him, to beg him to come and be with me...to live inside my very being.